The 'I feel' thread. - Page 4

xivorymoonx · #61 (**permalink**) 07-02-2008, 10:34 PM

I feel...
mad, because today one of my guy friends started dissing on my boyfriend, and my best friend took his side instead of mine.
My boyfriend has done nothing wrong, and it's none of their business who I stay with.
But then happy,
because another one of my friends who was with us, defended me, saying that I really care about my boyfriend and I want to stay with him, so I should.
I felt happy that at least one of my friends really cares about what I want.

BonBonBarbie · #62 (**permalink**) 07-02-2008, 11:15 PM

arghhh how annoying.
but then sometimes when i tell my friends the latest problems my boyfriend develops, haha, it kinda annoys me when she takes my side like ''yeah i know how annoying''. its like grrr no, he may be but thats my place not yours!

Cailey · #63 (**permalink**) 07-02-2008, 11:32 PM

i feel HUNGRY

AGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHH

chacha · #64 (**permalink**) 07-03-2008, 05:10 AM

I feel crappy because if I never called up any of my friends then they'd forget about me because they rarely do the calling.

Kavi · #65 (**permalink**) 07-03-2008, 10:19 AM

i feel... really worried.. :|

my boyfriend and his best friend(also my friend) might start hating each other pretty soon. I hope that it doesn't happen. Knowing my boyfriend, if they do start to hate each other, it would be his fault and for something unnecessary and would have been something that could have passed without a fight.

Nattfall · #66 (**permalink**) 07-07-2008, 04:28 PM

I feel melancholic because I've just left Trondheim and a bunch of friends that I love and whom I won't see again for at least a year now. It's sort of a bittersweet feeling, really, because we had som much fun~

redpixie · #67 (**permalink**) 07-07-2008, 04:31 PM

I feel...

mentally exhausted, who knew trying to get an ex back could be so...tiring....

phren · #68 (**permalink**) 07-07-2008, 05:00 PM

urrghh i've been wanting to go to my friend's house (who moved away so we hardly ever see her anymore) but last few days i'm feeling kinda.. depressed. not proper depression i think no > __<;; but.. i just don't want to do anything, a lot of the time just want to go to my bed and lie there. it's all because i watched that episode of doctor who (haha and i don't even regularly watch it) ahhh it messed with my brain. usually i'm an unemotional person so this is weird. i've cried tons over the last few days for no reason. also my mum says £20 for a trip and staying one night is too much.. and i kinda agree with her .. :/ urgh sorry guys for my whining D8

but talking to people on asiajam (even if it's just me blabbing and no one reads) makes me feel better. C:

Nattfall · #69 (**permalink**) 07-07-2008, 05:06 PM

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Originally Posted by phren

urrghh i've been wanting to go to my friend's house (who moved away so we hardly ever see her anymore) but last few days i'm feeling kinda.. depressed. not proper depression i think no > __<;; but.. i just don't want to do anything, a lot of the time just want to go to my bed and lie there. it's all because i watched that episode of doctor who (haha and i don't even regularly watch it) ahhh it messed with my brain. usually i'm an unemotional person so this is weird. i've cried tons over the last few days for no reason. also my mum says £20 for a trip and staying one night is too much.. and i kinda agree with her .. :/ urgh sorry guys for my whining D8

but talking to people on asiajam (even if it's just me blabbing and no one reads) makes me feel better. C:

We do read! And it's so sad reading about your friend. I too have lot of friends living far away from me, and it's so expensive seeing them. And I know how you feel about just wanting to lie in your bed all day. I sometimes feel that way too, and sometimes it lasts for several months. I just can't seem to be happy, and nothing cheers me up. I get all emotional and philosophical, and I think too much, and I don't think I'm going anywhere, and that I need to change for the better, but I lack the enthusiasm. Sometimes I wish I didn't think. It's so... depressing at times.

You probably don't feel one inch better from reading this, but the only thing I know for sure is that it gets better! It always does. Sometimes it takes a lot of time, but it never lasts forever. Hang in there

redpixie · #70 (**permalink**) 07-07-2008, 05:10 PM

I feel like that too right now phren so dont feel alone in feeling it

and not just cus I'm going through a tough break up, i think girls are wired to get like that every now and again

and that time of the months usually doesn't help either! :P

Kavi · #71 (**permalink**) 07-08-2008, 12:28 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by phren

urrghh i've been wanting to go to my friend's house (who moved away so we hardly ever see her anymore) but last few days i'm feeling kinda.. depressed. not proper depression i think no > __<;; but.. i just don't want to do anything, a lot of the time just want to go to my bed and lie there. it's all because i watched that episode of doctor who (haha and i don't even regularly watch it) ahhh it messed with my brain. usually i'm an unemotional person so this is weird. i've cried tons over the last few days for no reason. also my mum says £20 for a trip and staying one night is too much.. and i kinda agree with her .. :/ urgh sorry guys for my whining D8

but talking to people on asiajam (even if it's just me blabbing and no one reads) makes me feel better. C:

This is the exact feeling i got within the time period that i smoked a lot of weed. I smoked it for about a year and a half straight, like at least twice a week and for a time, every other day. Weed got me thinking a LOT so all i wanted to do was sleep, and wake up a just THINK about stuff rather than actually doing it. Or sometimes i just wanted to lay in bed but then i'd think about why am i just laying here? and i'd cry sometimes. Overall, i'm thankful that i picked up weed because i definitely learned things about myself from smoking it, but i also learned that its not something that should be smoked all the time. lol. but i still don't regret doing it all the time or else i would never have been so sure that i shouldn't do it so much.
Then there have been times even when i didn't smoke weed where i'd have this big empty feeling. like I'M empty, like something is missing! And it wasn't a person that was missing because i had my boyfriend and he's great(this was like a year ago lol). I didn't know what was missing, i thought maybe it was my drive that was missing, which i still think it was. Maybe you lack ambition for something to be passionate in? You know even though i have that ONE dream, i still feel like i lack passion for it. But during those times, i just kept doing what i was doing, and i eventually came out of it. It could be a feeling of loneliness as well.

I also thought during that time that maybe a pet would make me feel better. Like having my very own pet that was dependent on me and i could play with when i get like that and maybe take out for a walk. Being couped up inside all day can do that to you. Getting out usually makes me feel better and it brings you out of that state you can get in to when you're alone in your room or on the comp for a long period of time.

phren · #72 (**permalink**) 07-08-2008, 01:17 AM

thank you for talking to me you three ! i appreciate it so much thank you :'D
this is incredibly weird for me because i've never showed much emotion before. i think i took the program i watched and really obsessed over the feeling it gave. i couldn't think of anything else. maybe it's because i couldn't decide whether i was happy, or upset, and it really threw me off.
but i felt like i made rather a big fuss about not so much aha.. 'cause a lot of people experience this and much much worse regularly.. so thank you guys <3

@nattfall: ah nope you made me feel heaps better thank you <3 oh man, months? D8 i'm sorry that must be awful .. i feel bad for complaining about a few days now aha n __n;;;

@redpixie: uwww i hope you feel better soon too -hug- haha hormones could be the reason ! although i'm not usually one to get hormonal, pmt etc.

@kavi: ah although that is bad i agree with you that is probably a good experience, now that you have got out of it : D yeah, i think recently i've felt lonely.. not lonely for a certain person but for so long i spent hardly any time with people or out of the house (mostly due to studying).

even though i can't visit my friend, just will take walks now, even every day. i want to get out and look at things and people.i guess that will make me stop feeling so disconnected. i find (in this mood) being with people i know often makes me unconfortable and disconcerted.

thank you (again) oops i feel quite embarrassed now o ///o

demoipourvous · #73 (**permalink**) 07-09-2008, 04:39 PM

CRAP-FREAKING-TASTIC (and I don't mean that in a good way)

Happy crappy 25th birthday. My mother and I had a huge argument over my "future" or what she thinks is my lack of one a couple of minutes after I woke up. Hell, she couldn't even be bothered to say Happy Birthday. My first greeting for the day was, "So now you're 25. When will you start thinking about your future? You're still not doing anything worth...beasically...well...anything." This went on for an hour after which I left to do the errands that she asked me to do for her. Suffice it to say that all the errands involved a lot of waiting, lining up, traffic, rude employees, etc. etc. etc.

Then when I finally finished, my BF and I also had a huge argument because I "just wouldn't cheer up" within 15 minutes of meeting me after said argument with mother. I don't have a freaking switch! *click* I'm happy! *click* I'm depressed... *click* Happy-happy! Joy-joy! Instead of salvaging what was left of my birthday, I ended up going home because I...YES! I, ME, MYSELF felt guilty for not being happy-happy joy-joy enough in front of him!

Out of all the people I considered friends, none even sent one text message, e-mail or even bothered to call. Funny, one person who I considered to be just an acquaintance ended up being the only one to send me a text greeting. Aside from him, only my sister, my dad and my BF.

When I got home, my father was visiting "to greet his 25 year old daughter a happy birthday", were the words he used. "Sorry, I don't have a gift for you materially-speaking, but I came here because your Mom and I had a talk." And boy what a talk it was. We ended up having a shouting match and my dad pushing me for "disrespecting" my mother and for being "dumb".

No gifts by the way. Because my BF couldn't afford to buy me one because he's saving his credit card and his cash for something...not even a lousy card. All he could say was, "But Baby, this isn't just for me, it's for you too. It's for us!" I couldn't even buy myself anything because I had to lend my mom money for groceries and other essentials (which I rushed around the city to do).

My sister, she gave me a handrawn card with an anime version of me and her when she was still a baby (we have a 7 year age gap) It was really cute...maybe I'll post a pic when I stop crying. I don't want to sog it all up. In short, I love it. That's all I got.

So here I am. at 11:23PM. Near midnight. Crying my eyes out over the worst birthday ever.

Sorry if this seems like such a shallow and uber depressing rant

I'm really so down right now with everything that's been happening. If it's not one thing, it's the other.

xivorymoonx · #74 (**permalink**) 07-09-2008, 05:06 PM

I feel...
really dissapointed because my boyfriend hasn't called in a couple days and I really miss him =(
And I also feel...
extremely lazy x.x

JunGaeHyuk · #75 (**permalink**) 07-09-2008, 06:33 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by demoipourvous

CRAP-FREAKING-TASTIC (and I don't mean that in a good way)

Happy crappy 25th birthday. My mother and I had a huge argument over my "future" or what she thinks is my lack of one a couple of minutes after I woke up. Hell, she couldn't even be bothered to say Happy Birthday. My first greeting for the day was, "So now you're 25. When will you start thinking about your future? You're still not doing anything worth...beasically...well...anything." This went on for an hour after which I left to do the errands that she asked me to do for her. Suffice it to say that all the errands involved a lot of waiting, lining up, traffic, rude employees, etc. etc. etc.

Then when I finally finished, my BF and I also had a huge argument because I "just wouldn't cheer up" within 15 minutes of meeting me after said argument with mother. I don't have a freaking switch! *click* I'm happy! *click* I'm depressed... *click* Happy-happy! Joy-joy! Instead of salvaging what was left of my birthday, I ended up going home because I...YES! I, ME, MYSELF felt guilty for not being happy-happy joy-joy enough in front of him!

Out of all the people I considered friends, none even sent one text message, e-mail or even bothered to call. Funny, one person who I considered to be just an acquaintance ended up being the only one to send me a text greeting. Aside from him, only my sister, my dad and my BF.

When I got home, my father was visiting "to greet his 25 year old daughter a happy birthday", were the words he used. "Sorry, I don't have a gift for you materially-speaking, but I came here because your Mom and I had a talk." And boy what a talk it was. We ended up having a shouting match and my dad pushing me for "disrespecting" my mother and for being "dumb".

No gifts by the way. Because my BF couldn't afford to buy me one because he's saving his credit card and his cash for something...not even a lousy card. All he could say was, "But Baby, this isn't just for me, it's for you too. It's for us!" I couldn't even buy myself anything because I had to lend my mom money for groceries and other essentials (which I rushed around the city to do).

My sister, she gave me a handrawn card with an anime version of me and her when she was still a baby (we have a 7 year age gap) It was really cute...maybe I'll post a pic when I stop crying. I don't want to sog it all up. In short, I love it. That's all I got.

So here I am. at 11:23PM. Near midnight. Crying my eyes out over the worst birthday ever.

Sorry if this seems like such a shallow and uber depressing rant

I'm really so down right now with everything that's been happening. If it's not one thing, it's the other.

aww i wish i could give you a hug!! boo for shitty birthdays!

i spent my last birthday [#23] in Air force basic training. i was all alone and sad. it sucked too.

Happy belated 25th... i wish you a better day today!

AmyLou · #76 (**permalink**) 07-09-2008, 07:30 PM

demoipourvous - Omg, I'm so sorry!

I really hope you feel better soon! D= -hugs-

I feel... very ugly x-x My face felt all greasy even though I washed it normally (cleanse and tone in the morning), my hair felt greasy and crap (I washed it yesterday... I knew I should've tied it up) and my under eye bags are getting me down.

Whatever stuff I put on them, it doesn't block them out because there's these little dots on them (they're normal but I dunno know what their actual name is) which make covering them up really hard.

I should take time to put liquid eyeliner on in the morning but I'd probably rub it off during school. I fall asleep a lot anyway x_x School tires me out more than anything...

mallorymaloney · #77 (**permalink**) 07-09-2008, 08:01 PM

OMG, demoi' ... Your family and boyfriend were all so cruel to you ... I'm so sorry! They don't realise how important birthdays are ... And they are very important, in my opinion.

Again, I'm so sorry you had to go through all that ... If I were you, I would have ended up telling my boyfriend and family to 'Fxck off', in those exact words ... But um, I guess that wouldn't be very good advice, it'd probably just make things worse. If they're still mean to you tomorrow, though, I'd tell them off. I would!

Forget them all for now --- I'm going to make you an online birthday card to cheer you up! ^^ BRB~

mallorymaloney · #78 (**permalink**) 07-09-2008, 08:39 PM

Here you are, demoi'!

^^

13th_hr · #79 (**permalink**) 07-09-2008, 08:41 PM

@demoi: aww Happy belated birthday!! I didn't even know. I usually send out pm's to jammers to wish them a happy b-day. But I guess I didn't see your name at the bottom or I wasnt on the forum that day...
I'm sorry you had to go through all that on your birthday.
and I know how you feel about the friends thing. No one wishes you happy birthday... It gets depressing...
I'm glad that you got the hand made card from your sis though! it changes everything.
I hope you feel better!

Nattfall · #80 (**permalink**) 07-09-2008, 08:46 PM

@ demoipourvous: Oh, reading your post made me feel so sad! It's so mean of your parents, boyfriend and friends to act that way, and worst of all, it was your birthday! My parents are a lot like that too, you know... I don't hear much of it, 'cause I'm only 18, but my sister, who is 23, gets to hear a lot about their ranting. She studies Japanese at the university in Oslo, and they can't understand why and asks her how many carrier possibilities she'll get from studying Japanese. They don't understand that she doesn't know what to do with her life, and that she studies it because she thinks it fun! Anyway, it seems that sometimes, those who are close to you are the ones that feel the farthest away in the end... Even though I don't feel one inch close to my parents... In fact, I don't feel so good myself now. My friends have gone to England for a vacation. They didn't even tell me that they were going, but I heard it from another friend. She thought it was okay to tell me because she thought I was going as well. But since they didn't even bother to tell me that they were going, I suppose they didn't want me to come along... What I think I'm trying to tell you is that you're not alone. I wish I could send you a birthday present to make you feel better!